Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Lake Chelan( it was wt written on the notebook in front of me)

hi.. it is sharp 9am in the morhing n i am at neri's place. as usual she is busy with her chores, so i am doing the most useless thing in the world ... BLOGGING. know what, it always happens.. i am on time.. n maharani time lagtai hai faltu kaamo mein. i was about to mail it to someone as usual.. but then.. this silly thought of posting it came to my mind. i mean y not..!!
see i got really stupid, silly, interesting, good habit of writing things down. lately it has helped a lot u know. when i needed to convey things to someone.. i mailed it to them... i had a fight with someone n as usual i am guilty.. i mail n appolozise. then again as i am telling everyone now a days more than writing i love to read what i have written.. oh thats too much fun. this way i collect few memories for myself.. n can keep them for ever. when on farewell i gave that post card to qt she was like " the best thing they give is things they write down for us" so i guess same goes for me.. i keep few words for myself as well... n lately writing on private blog is no fun at all. not that someone reads it on public blog though but yet... i mean when i wrute things in there.. it all very sad n gloomy.. so now a days as everyone knows, comments, sees that i am bit chirrpy (TOUCHWOOD) so i am enjoying a bit of my freedom as well by writing on public blog.
i have written this lot n neri is not ready yet.. GWAD... this girl..!! anyways.. such is life for me.. >sigh<

Thursday, April 16, 2009

the viberating train... lol!

i don't know why but i wanted to write it on my public blog.. for everyone to see.. i mean wtf, why everything needs to be sensible on my blog when i am not sensible at all... whom i am hiding from btw. i realized i got this new habit where i carry this sorta pen in my hand n i keep writing mine on everything that caught my eyes. after that i let it be, as obviously i always get something else to claim as mine.., i forget it completely. but then when someone else comes to appreciate stuff which was supposed to be mine (just because i claimed it to be)... i am like.. "hello, it belongs to me, ok " so when i am actually loosing some stuff it's only then i realize "oh.. it belonged to me once". so here comes the another, and the most annoying habit of mine which is " i know everything, but i do nothing" i am such a cool dumbo!!

then there is another thing... i don't know how but i got this new power lately. no it's not attitude again.. it's freedom. freedom of speech, of expression, of hmm.. u can say,, actually saying out my thoughts loud. i mean.. u c the way i am free with myself here on this blog.. same way i am getting open to people. like no matter what's there on my mind.. how stupid or how hurtful, i just say it on ppl's face. n knw wt.. it's magic. yea.. it is..!!! yea true.. i do miss my lonely self for a while.. but then i am addicted to this . you know na.. how prone i am to addiction. may be coz it's last of the days so i am trying to gather as much as i can.. n yea there are still ppl who are still on test bench(poor they, coz i am being really mean to them..sigh) but i can actually see a jumping n howling chrripy self of mine.. which is new to even me.. ya! i am being SWEET u know... n m seriously missing my FRUSTATED, WICKED, BITCHY self... eh.. sweet.. it's just not my type.. but it's working any ways.. so i guess.. i'll let it be for a moment.. coz nothing lasts more than a moment in my life.. yea.. it even suits the name "volatile vapor" hmm..

n yea IPL is going to start from 18.. i am very excited.. n yea.. my promise to myself.. this time, no matter what, i am going to have mohali's jersey on my b'day..!!

i want it..
iwant it..
iwant it..
i do..!!!
haah!